Girls I have some very exciting news :)?

Hi girls, sorry to go off topic a bit but what does BFP and TTC mean. I have also been trying to conceive for ages now. My cycle had gotten regular after I started taking folic acid. i had my last period in October. I have been having most of the regular symptoms but i am too afraid to go get a test coz I dont think I can handle the thought of being told its negative again. It just hurts so much!!